Dear Pen Pal,
I hope the day has been kind to you and Iffat hasn't that you've really been kind to yourself. Today missing things is on my mind. Missed deadlines. Missed opportunities. Missed connections. And the feelings that come up for me when they happen. Self-blame, wondering what if, and reminiscing about a moment that could've been more. Wondering what I'll miss next, and hoping that whatever's meant for me won't miss me regardless of how scattered I may be. It will find me.
Despite this certainty, I still find myself pondering what could have been. Not because I don't have trust within the my path and where it where it will take me, because I do. But because I am human, and sometimes that's just what we do.
Sometimes we get stuck on the should'ves could'ves and would'ves, instead of what is. And at times that's okay. But it becomes an issue when the should'ves could'ves and would'ves start to consume you. And even though missed deadlines, opportunities, and connections are on my mind right now, I know that focusing on what could've been, can stop what could be. And who wants that? I know I don't, and you might not either.
With Gratitude,
Peneliope